In My Eyes... i c U

Busyness is a symptom of modern living

2011-02-20T08:04:00.000-08:00

When is the last time I set and wait for someone to call? or watched sunset in a quiet place? or stopped and really watched TV? or rested and listened to music?

sadly, I haven't done any of this in the last two months. Things like this are very uncommon in my life. For several reasons, "TIme" which many people have in plenty i do not get.

Its not just at work i am busy. Not that i have many work to do, but when i get a free time i feel as if i have thousands of uncompleted works. Might be the toilet i have to clean or the shoes i have to clean, the dust bin i have to empty, the drawer which i have not organized, the food i have not eaten, the article i have not read, or the stuff i want to learn the list goes on and on... by the time the day ends i feel as if i have no energy left to stretch a leg.

Busyness is a symptom in my life which i haven't find a cure yet ? i wonder how others survive in this sickness!

passion for the profession

2011-01-31T20:35:00.000-08:00

i have heard many people say patience is a key to success. i wondered before to what extent of patience. Having experienced now i can say patience in fact is a keyto success. however at this point i am having this terrible feeling about my career. i am not enjoying the career i have chosen myself. i tried enjoying it but a bad day makes me think why in all the fields i have chosen this one? I had passion and interest in this field when i studied it. i thought after my studies i will work with all that passion and bring about lot of changes As i started working i did not find that passion, that interest, that effort to make things better. Happy to say i have no conflicts with any of my colleagues. The problem is within myself i am not enjoying it the way its meant to be. As the day pass i pray God to end the day as soon as possible so that i can go home. i did not have the interest to use or work up to my potential. of course the pay is good, the work load is less compared to the pay. but i am not enjoying the career? or again can " patience" make things better??

Raey eWn

2009-12-29T12:28:00.000-08:00

ooO i can't remember a time i have written anything substantial. Anyway been months since i wrote anything here and makes me laugh reading certain posts and my attitude towards certain things. i don't think i am making this clear i am trying to tell u something here. see the very attitude of me has changed after few months meaning we grow mentally and physically within few days. so for the new year make a promise to change what you cannot change, anything you have thought you cannot change but with little effort you know you can change. make sense !! okay i gotta run...actually not run sleep. bye

you can own the whole world, aa just a little effort. .

2009-08-02T13:09:00.000-07:00

Everything we achieve in life takes several ups and downs. To accomplish anything in life first we have to dream, and then day by day we focus on making this dream real. Sometimes it takes, months and several years.
This is what happens. Suppose you want a perfect shape.
You set a goal to gain 5 Kg in two months time. But when you start gaining weight you feel like all you eat goes to your tummy. similarly when you want to lose weight you feel like all your calories burn from all other parts of the body except tummy. You get fed up soon.
See you have worked so hard to that day without worrying about your genetics or earlier shape. Why give up? Or get fed up? The whole universe helps you, when you have passion, love and will to achieve it. All you need is a little effort. All you need is concentrate on what you want t. Important thing is” love”. It reminds me of this song..

tumse hi, din hota hai…
(my day begins with your thoughts…)
surmai, shaam aati hai…
(and the dawns are made beautiful with you…)
tumse hi… tumse hi…
(with you… just with you…)

ah here "tum" refers to the goal you want to achieve, once you start achieving a goal you have set, you feels like singing with love in it. Don’t you? hah there goes.. and hah don’t be too dreamy..

raaste, mil jaate hain…
(I find my ways by itself…)
manzilein, mil jaati hain…
(I find my destinations, so easily now…)
tumse hi… tumse hi…
(it’s because of you… because of you…)

the best way to gain or lose weight is concentrate on how much weight you want to lose. It is possible to gain or lose 10 kg in two months but it is not healthy. So it’s important you keep a time line and then start to get fed up with your results.
its been a long time since I have been trying to gain weight, I have failed several attempts. I learned that the mistake I do is focusing on too many goals at the same time. Once I gain little weight I will lose it during exam time. When i realize all I eat goes to tummy I figured I have to do some exercises. But that was never given priority above the other goals I want to accomplish. If I have Jim in the evening, I may reschedule some other work for the same time. So most of the time the goal I set is never given much importance. Soon i gave up saying “never am i gonna do it ever”.

with thorough thinking one day i sat in front of a table and thought of the only one goal i want to achieve. i took a pencil and wrote how important it is to me. Then i read it thrice daily,it gave me an unshakable confidence to draw a mind map of things i have to do, set a time line. i learned to say "no" and managed my time well keeping a particular time for sports. i figured what sports are best for different parts of the body. And in three weeks time i can see the results which i can never imagine before.

All I am saying if you have love to achieve anything in life the whole world will assist you do it provided that you give a little effort. This is just the beginning.. once you try other goals one after other you will see there is nothing impossible on earth. just try achieving goals like learning a challenging language in a year, buying a beautiful house, working as a assistant chef in a restaurant, crazy they are, i know but it is challenging. aren't they?

Holiday blues

2009-07-31T13:44:00.000-07:00

Enjoying playing piano at home..
here's one of the song i love..

They tortured him, the baby, the extent of thier cruelty.

2009-06-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

whats the fault of the small child.8-month old, probably be crawling or be moving about by bottom shuffling. who would not have wanted a child? who would not have wanted to up bring a good child of their own blood?this is a question our mind will agree upon.

yet they tortured, murdered him, the extent of their cruelty. Are they humans? one day as a baby they started their life? God has given them senses, powers, hands and minds .They use their minds uselessly, their hands for the dirty,evil work. They are indeed evil,dump and blind. there is no justification for what they have done.Its just a disgrace and shame the world has come to this. The poor child with severe pain for the time being , survived from their ruthless hands by early death. God knows best.

Same type of incidents have been repeated in the history in United States.Arnold Ross,a 17- year old was arrested on charges of aggravated rape and first degree murder of an 8-year old child. Ross have been arrested previously for the possession of marijuana and cocaine. Is drug the source?

Infanticide, the killing of newborn with the consent of the parent, family or community. Infanticide as a reason of of shortage of food is common in traditional patriarchal societies. Disabled children usually killed for the benefit of the family. In almost all religions and countries condemns infanticide as a ruthless crime. "RESPECTFUL" killing called abortion also comes under infanticide. Neglecting the right to live in the world for other reasons, protective or respective measures they call it( MERCY KILLING). Are they able to predict the future?

To all those who have lost their loved ones..

2009-06-07T13:45:00.000-07:00

i like this tune,sooooooothing..

feeling different!

2009-06-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

Don't let your shyness cost your life? can feel the change.

Loves me or Loves me not, solve it by a Math Equation dJ/dt = -bR

2009-05-29T12:26:00.000-07:00

In the 300 years since Newton, mankind has come to realize that the laws of physics are always expressed in the language of differential equations. This is true for the equations governing the flow of heat, air and water; for the laws of electricity and magnetism.To illustrate love in a mathematical approach the following example can be taken.
suppose Romeo is in love with Juliet, but in our version of the story, Juliet is a fickle lover. The more Romeo loves her, the more she wants to run away and hide. But when he takes the hint and backs off, she begins to find him strangely attractive. He, on the other hand, tends to echo her: he warms up when she loves him and cools down when she hates him.
By writing equations that summarize how Romeo and Juliet respond to each other’s affections and then solving those equations with calculus, we can predict the course of their affair. The resulting forecast for this couple is, tragically, a never-ending cycle of love and hate. At least they manage to achieve simultaneous love a quarter of the time.

For readers who are curious about the math used here:
In the first story above, Romeo’s behavior was modeled by the differential equation dR/dt = aJ. This equation describes how Romeo’s love (represented by R) changes in the next instant (represented by dt). The amount of change (dR) is just a multiple (a) of Juliet’s current love (J) for him. This equation idealizes what we already know – that Romeo’s love goes up when Juliet loves him – by assuming something much stronger. It says that Romeo’s love increases in direct linear proportion to how much Juliet loves him. This assumption of linearity is not emotionally realistic, but it makes the subsequent analysis much easier. Juliet’s behavior, on the other hand, was modeled by the equation dJ/dt = -bR. The negative sign in front of the constant b reflects her tendency to cool off when Romeo is hot for her. Given these equations and an assumption about how the lovers felt about each other initially (R and J at time t = 0), one can use calculus to inch R and J forward, instant by instant. In this way, we can figure out how much Romeo and Juliet love (or hate) each other at any future time. For this elementary model, the equations should be familiar to students of math and physics: Romeo and Juliet behave like simple harmonic oscillators. read more..

To survive cancer, live with it

2009-05-28T14:05:00.000-07:00

A mathematical oncologist at the Moffitt Cancer Center, Gatenby is part of a new generation of researchers who conceive of cancer as a dynamic, evolutionary system. According to his models, trying to wipe cancer out altogether actually makes it stronger by helping drug-resistant cells flourish. Rather than fighting cancer by trying to eradicate its every last cell, he suggests doctors might fare better by intentionally keeping tumors in a long-term stalemate.

It’s an unorthodox notion. But nearly 40 years after Richard Nixon declared war on cancer, orthodox approaches have produced little in the way of treatment. Cancer death rates have fallen by 20 percent in the last 15 years, but experts say that much of the improvement comes from lifestyle changes, especially drops in smoking, and early detection. Most new cancer drugs provide just a few extra weeks or months of life — a welcome delay, but all too brief. To read the whole article click .....

Red Bull pulled in Germany after cocaine test

2009-05-26T05:51:00.000-07:00

Red Bull is one of the most marketable drink in many countries, MSN news says..

BERLIN - Six German states have told retailers to stop selling Red Bull Cola energy drinks after a test found a trace amount of cocaine.

The bans started Friday after a sample test conducted by authorities in North Rhine-Westphalia state found 0.4 micrograms per liter in the drink.

Five other states also banned it from shops amid concerns over possible narcotics law violations.

Germany's Federal Institute for Risk Assessment said Monday that the cocaine level was too low to pose a health risk. It planned to produce a more detailed report Wednesday.

Red Bull said its cola is "harmless and marketable in both the U.S. and Europe." It said similar coca leaf extracts are used worldwide as flavoring, and a test it commissioned itself found no cocaine traces.

can this be true? if same coca leaves are used for the extraction process. This is something to be taken into consideration by the people who use RED BULL COLA.

What u Do NOT know about the New American Dream?

2009-05-23T07:20:00.000-07:00

see the U.S dollar carefully? notice the one eye symbol. perhaps you might have come across this symbol in many places ."The eye of providence, or the all seeing eye is a symbol showing an eye surrounded by rays of light or a glory and usually enclosed by a triangle. It is sometimes interpreted as representing the eye of God keeping watch on humankind" as copied from Wikipedia. How true is this? why was this symbol used by Egyptians decades ego? why is the same symbol still being used? you will know the answer of this question and many others. worth a watch. "The arrivals".
http://www.thearrivals.blogspot.com/

This Series Explores the Revelations in World Religions Regarding the Arrivals of the Antichrist Dajjal, Imam Al-Mahdi, and The Second Coming of The Christ. A Work Inspired by Hashemsfilms and of Course the Words of the Noble Qoran, The Holy Bible, and The Torah, The Arrivals is a Joint Production by truthseekers Noreagaaa and Achernahr.
i am inspired by the effort and work put into making this series. The amazing truth about the new world how It explores the very truth behind materialism, beauty and possessions. I find it hard to engulf its less fame compared to other series. To me its better than Prison break, friends, u name it..

Busy!!

2009-05-20T04:53:00.000-07:00

Neglected Passion.

2009-04-27T12:42:00.000-07:00

wow, what can i say? i feel great!
Gloom pervaded my room when i woke up early in the morning at 5 o'clock. i have to force my interest on books,set of questions i have to answer in order to evaluate my skills. yes,preparation for a small exam i have to attend. i kept on going through the books hesitatingly with anger until the last minute. And with so much reluctance ended up doing well.:)
After that hardly i realized a good sleep would refresh me. sleep soothes me much more than i expected.
A long shower would mean the last thing on my mind. Though i spend an hour in shower. Thinking about life and things i have missed,feeling the tiny droplets of water falling on my head carelessly for hours. No wonder shower relaxed me. still the boredom filled my inner soul making it empty and hollow. Trying to find satisfaction from reading typed( Crl+T ) several times allowing all the bookmarked pages to read.. A name of movie took my initial interest, rest of time i spend on watching the movie rather than reading and going through the sites.

Even then i never realized what i have been missing. With a struck of thought without wasting time i called a friend and told her to come over for dinner. Before she arrived i hasten to do the necessary shopping. when i was on my way out of the shop, heard my name being called. i turned, strange, haven't seen any maldivian around. To my surprise a friend of mine stood near by me "hajja shopping alone" she uttered. i smiled"yeah, should come to my place for dinner tonight". i answered back. Back to home first thing on my mind was to prepare a cashew nut rice, Tandoori chicken, deep fry fish, a curry, dessert "kheer" and some type of juice. when i was just frying the fish my friends arrived, a group of three. By then i haven't prepared the masala for Tandoori which has to be marinated for at least 2 to 3 hours. Immediately i gave up the idea and changed the recipe to my desire for the chicken. And not to forget i haven't bought anything to make curry, there was no lime, no curry leaves, no chilly in the end.. i realized i was too careless to check out before going to shop. however without curry had a quite good dinner in the end with friends.
Recently i have not truely enjoyed cooking much. plus i have given less effort to be more organized. i hope this will bring my passion of cooking back. finally i am happy that i found what i have been missing in the end of the day. my neglected passion.

How Deep Is Your Love?

2009-04-20T11:38:00.000-07:00

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

Chorus:
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You are the light in my deepest darkest hour
You are my savior when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show

God is great!

2009-04-19T13:18:00.000-07:00

Imagine living a life without burdens, barriers, the hassles and hardens of everyday living. Imagine living in a perfect world, having reasonable financial security, unchanging love and admiration from people, no brain storming and no pressure from day to day life. such kind of life resemble more like an otherworldly dream,a rosy picture in the pages of fairytale books..more like a life we have in our deepest dreams..

On the other hand picture a life with barriers, burdens of everyday living. Visualize living in an imperfect world,yet with hopes, dreams, promises, achievement and work to fulfill the needs of everyday life. Thinking, brainstorming,improving, adjusting to situations. This is what is called "life". The beauty of life is it's unpredictability, ambiguity,uncertainty. it's nothing but an adventurous expedition

In life difficult situations and barriers are inevitable. Hard to believe anyone leading a perfect life as above. But we humans have the nature of complaining, for any difficult circumstance we face we complain,accuse of life. Ask ourselves "why me?", grieve, lose hope. we all expect life itself should offer endless opportunities and fulfillment of dreams. Deep inside we think we deserve our fare share of living life comfortably without difficult situations in the limited time.

we keep saying its nothing but fate. Although think of those small babies being killed, murdered. small children being beaten, can we engulf the pain in their heart for one second. what about others who suffer in silence without their fault, what about those in Palestine's, about many others who have no opportunity for education,deaf, blind people, can we feel the pain of their heart.. How unfair is life? but with everything in life we say our life is fate? how selfish can we be? we learn to blame life? we accuse life? How inhuman can we be? we are never thankful? we are never satisfied? how cruel we are?

It is not the fate which makes some people happier, more fulfilled and more successful than others. life is in our hand, we have the control of life, we are responsible of what we do to our life.If it happens without our fault yet we are responsible of our life..

Its not only you, even i asked my self "why me?", yet i learned through difficult situations. I figure out ways rather than complaining of tracing out my faults and improvements i need to bring in life. In whatever situation i promised myself never to do anything wrong in life. Faith and hope guided me in life.

what ever situation in life have faith and don't lose hope, patience is the key, Don't dramatize life, and don't assume future and immediately jump into conclusions, don't stress about it, figure out ways that makes you happy, plan, organize, learn to accept faults and practice ways to improve self. love yourself, stop in front of the mirror and think for once, the very existence and perfectness of your being. yes "God is great". Successful life is for those who seek it, not to those who destroy it.

World Without Humans

2009-04-14T02:11:00.000-07:00

4ajja to hajja

2009-04-13T11:08:00.000-07:00

My name is changed upon the request of few friends. i have been requested to use "#" instead of "4"which i also think is more appropriate. But then how will you pronounce it? so i decided to change just to "hajja". Hope i can see your beaming smile now. This might sound little bizarre but i used the name because its how a mortal used 2 write my name..

Thank You All. I Am One Year Closer To Death!

2009-04-11T13:22:00.000-07:00

woooh! Its over.. it was fun. i received kind of expected surprise:P. Thank u all dearies.. thanks for

The chocolate truffle cake (don't know to whom i have to thank this for)it was yummy.
The most expensive golden ring for Queen, king, baby, barbie, cute kid,dhonbe, shim, thithibe, ikka , it was luvly
The most admirable card for Queen, king, baby, barbie, cute kid,dhonbe, shim, thithibe, ikka.
The useful bag for my friend complexi, snow white and Tinker bell and her peter pan
The handy purse for my friend complexi, snow white and Tinker bell and her peter pan
The expensive candle for my friend complexi, snow white and Tinker bell and her peter pan
The pretty dress for my friend complexi, snow white, Tinker bell and her peter pan
The well wished mug for my friend complexi, snow white, Tinker bell and her peter pan
The most adorable glass Cindrella shoe for my friend complexi, snow white,Tinker bell and her peter pan
The most needing pins and clips for my friend complexi, snow white, Tinker bell and her peter pan.
The lovely perfume bottle for my friend complexi,snow white, tinker bell and her peter pan
The lovable evening shoe for Bollywood actress and actor
The sensuous bag for Bollywood actress and actor
The attractive purse or wallet from Bollywood actress and actor
The special thanks goes to all others who are not here and have taken so much effort to wish me on my birthday from far away places. sorry i missed few calls. i will get back to you soon insha allah.

Thank you all. I very much admired the chief guest" baby" at the reception Special thanks.. clap clap.. snow white, complexi and Tinker bell i have to sue you for lying to me.. Very much appreciation for Bolywood actor and actress for giving time from their already busy schedule.. i thought i will upload the photos of all the gifts i received for recapturing those moments in future. Applause to complexgal for the special post on her blog for my birthday. thank u.
Ha tomorrow gonna have fun time again.. :)sunday ennu.

Surprises on the way!

2009-04-10T14:22:00.000-07:00

Oh God i hate what i have done. For three hours i have been changing different backgrounds, font colors, adjusting margins and everything. In the end i think i have done worse. i am tired and sleepy. Have to attend tomorrows class too. i wish tomorrow i wont be a victim of eggs and colors.
I know i will get a surprise party, hehe hilarious to say this.haha So before that i will call everyone and say come to my place tomorrow for my "surprise birthday party". And will warn them not to ask me when cos i have no idea when it is.
All these things is just no fun. its all about aging but for the time being its fun. Last birthday i had a surprise party where the staffs of that place brought the gifts..hehe that was quite unique. Before that about 19 eggs on my head with a surprise birthday party. hahaha and before that a cake and gifts at my place around midnight, haven't expected.. so on and on and the memorable was 10th birthday can always remember the butterfly cake.
Looking back into life i think i have learned great lessons. yet i still have so many things i want to improve or do like things listed below.

need to be more organized
have to be little bit selfish
get a better result
learn to speak English fluently with correct pronouciation
want to learn some programming language
want to be good at sewing
improve general knowledge
learn to have fun
think positively
want to learn to prepare variety of dishes
need to improve personality
have to be more fit
want to learn western dance
learn to be more patient
want to learn hacking and be good at trouble shooting
want to learn to play musical instrument
make use of time effectively

And so many more.. Till today i realized i have never worked professionaly or have never gone to job. Despite the money i have earned from the tutions when i was in chse and school i have not used any money i earned myself. I have been studying all through out my life. i wonder how it will be like to go for a job and meet people rather than being confined at the house. I am sure it will be awkward to meet people of different personality. how will it be like without having to do exams? not sure:)
Talking about love life, i think i will rather keep personal life myself;)
i know i will get birthday presents tomorrow just like everyone else. In fact before one months time i have been asked what i want as a gift. i have calmly said if there is anything i want its the pins that i don't know where to find it from here. Other than that i don't think i need anything, rather a message or a note will be fine.To sum up i can say this year is the best and worst times i have in my life.
hope everyone will see this after the birthday thingy is over!

Playing football with family

2009-04-06T14:36:00.001-07:00

i have always being intrigued by this game. how the players move along with the ball, passing, kicking it.Its a wonder to see how they move their body according to the ball focusing their absolute attention on it. i have inflexibly thought they concentrate mostly on the feet, but once i asked a friend about this. He said "playing is not only by feet, its the mind which plays the important role".

i cant remember the time i played football. possibly hen i was young and on a usual year end trip to "thundi" in island with family members. After that played on the sitting room with house mates in abroad. So its how this particular sports is for most girls i guess, mostly believed as a game of gender male.

whatever,its a good exercise to health. Roughly fifteen minutes playing is more than equal to a good workout. So why not make your back yard a football ground so that you can enjoy playing with friends and family members. It will be fun and romantic too.I suppose its a much better idea than my idea of having a jim at home.

Addicted to Mana World

2009-04-06T13:43:00.000-07:00

Playing The Mana World after a long time. i don't mind playing it alone anymore. After all the whole world is there how can i say i am alone. Its fun.

how many more to go?

2009-03-31T13:52:00.000-07:00

Too much stress to confront during exam time. i have been counting days but seems endless.

Unseen friend

2009-03-29T01:20:00.000-07:00

Although you are a friend of mine
and letters we exchange,
I wouldn't know you on the street,
and doesn't that seem strange?

You hold a place within my life,
unusual and unique;
We share ideals and special dreams,
and still, we do not speak.

I picture what I think you are,
perhaps you picture me.
An intriguing game for both of us
for someone we can't see.

So for this friendship we possess,
we owe this mail a debt,
Perhaps the charm lies in the fact
that we have never met.

originally by iceman. A poem dedicated to a special friend.

Think positively!

2009-03-14T12:55:00.000-07:00

I asked for strength and
God gave me difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for wisdom and
God gave me problems to solve.

I asked for prosperity and
God gave me brawn and brains to work.

I asked for courage and
God gave me dangers to overcome.

I asked for patience and
God placed me in situations where I was forced to wait.

I asked for love and
God gave me troubled people to help.

I asked for favors and
God gave me opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted
I received everything I needed.

My prayers have all been answered.

why do we find some people interesting and some others boring?

2009-03-13T09:35:00.000-07:00

Many of us ask this question to ourselves. why do we find some people interesting and some others boring? Is it because he or she is beautiful, attractive, educated, innocent or talkative? is the answer "yes" or "No".

Beauty does sometimes masks the faults of the person as in an old saying in dhivehi says "ruhumuge lolakah aibeh nufennaane", but this does not last as a permanent interest. Coming to education,good scholars are more logical with more balanced mind and vast array of knowledge, they can communicate intellectually with the fools, still they can be boring? why?

My dear think of a situation when you find someone easy to go along. what makes you pull like a magnet towards the person. Isn't it good communications skills or something else.
would you agree with me if i say its nothing but "effective communication"?

Is there any difference between communication and effective communication?
communication as i copied from Wikipedia is "the imparting or interchange of thoughts, opinions, or information by speech, writing, or signs, a process by which information is exchanged between individuals through a common system of symbols, signs, or behavior which can be perceived as a two-way process in which there is an exchange and progression of thoughts, feelings or ideas towards a mutually accepted goal or direction".

We all communicate in our day to day life. And it is a question to ask how many of the (verbal or nonverbal or visual)communications reach the accepted goal?isn't it? if it reach the accepted goal can we call it an effective communication?

If not, what is effective communication? i think its better to rephrase the question and ask who is an effective communicator and what are the qualities in such a person which appeals us?

If i share my experience here all what i can say is they are the people gifted or attained with good speaking and listening skills.. Good listener in the sense hearing, understanding and judging on the talk of the other person with interest, giving time for the other person to speak. He or she can be still boring if happen to be a bad speaker.. Speaking requires good voice, well confident sound, with thoughtful feedback's , good tone, eye-contact, humor, and most importantly appropriate gestures and body language..

Some people find attracted to people who talk politely without laughs, while others find attracted to people who talk humorously with laughs in between, if both the group of people attain the above goal i call them as effective communicators..

Haven't you come across a situation where you find less interested to hear and no motivation to listen to a person who fulfills all the above qualities of a good speaker..? Then all i can say is even if you don't acknowledge you are a bad listener....:P